August 17th, 2018
Hi, It’s you talking to you (as usual)
Look, I know shit honestly sucks right now and you feel a lot emotions with the big change that is about to take place in your life, you are moving into your first apartment with your best friend and going back to school living the “adult life” and it is honestly fucking scary. You honestly do not know much about taking care of yourself and well, you never really got the chance to learn how because of stuff that happened in life.
But one thing is for sure, this place you are in right now, your room in your grandmother’s apartment is not the last place you’ll be, there is a whole world out there and at this point, it is your choice how you want to tackle this world or even if you want to but don’t be discouraged, you’ve made magic out of shitty situations so many time even when you shouldn’t have needed to but you did, and you did it well. Give yourself some credit, you’ve done the damn thing but don’t let that pat on the back make you feel like the work is done, it’s not and it’s not really going to be for a long time so here is where making active conscious choices come in, you have every right to be scared right now but it is your choice of wether you want to do the work to get you where you want to be despite that or be okay with where you are now.
This is not to invalidate your feelings but it’s the truth, the harsh and necessary truth.
Rest assured, IT WILL BE OKAY, YOU WILL BE OKAY and this is just many beginnings of your life time, you will look back on this very day and be so proud of yourself, create those goals and commit to them even if you don’t see results right away, even if other people laugh at you, even if you begin to doubt your journey. YOU WILL BE OKAY!
Let this be a new chapter where you decide to do it a bit different than you’ve been taught to or always have done it, this lifetime is for you and only you. You control only yourself and you are responsible for the decisions you do and don’t make. Choose wisely.
Choose your peace always and DON’T forget why you are in school, why you are sacrificing everything you’ve known and the future you want for yourself.
You got this!